On nights when Facebook and Journal reminders are NOT good ....

What a way to end last night or rather begin today ... 3 years ago today, I bade father a final goodbye.
(Don't know whether these journal entry reminders are a good idea)

I knew what I was getting into because I knew that I would be looking at funeral photos, but I just couldn't help it ... so I relived the memories (or should I call it my nightmares) and cried again. I miss you Father, I really do! Will I ever get over losing you?

Yesterday I thought that I handled your death anniversary pretty well ... Well sigh ... Regardless of whether or not I cry, I know I will never forget you or ever stop grieving. I feel that up until now, hardly anything (outside of our family) can hurt me any more because I have really really grieved so so deeply and sadly when I lost you forever. 😢😡

Ok I will try to recall what Sheryl Sandberg shared. And get some sleep.


Goodnight Father ... and I can almost hear you say Goodnight girl ... (Bawl)

Note:
Sheryl Sandberg Gives UC Berkeley Commencement Keynote Speech
https://youtu.be/iqm-XEqpayc

Transcript: Sheryl Sandberg at the University of California at Berkeley 2016 Commencement
http://fortune.com/2016/05/14/sandberg-uc-berkley-transcript/

Reflections

Wow, how time flies ... I have not updated this blog for 8 years! Now, let's see ... what has happened over the past almost-decade?

Busy in my last 3 years as an OM, became super busy as a DO since July 2011, got divorced, lost my beloved father in 2013 which was also the year where I was blessed with the opportunity to attend ALDP (APMEA Leadership Development Program), changed bosses a few times, really stepped up to the plate and learnt so much over the past one year and here I am, contemplating whether or not to start a blog again ... in between, both Ian and Mark have grown into fine , young men (well, still teenagers actually ...)

In 2013, I started a journal (using Day One app - it is awesome!) and have been diligently recording all mt reflections, attempts to install new habits, family activities, dad's journey and everything that I wanted to record!

Which is also partly why I have not been updating this blog ... cos all my memories are now in my DayOne journal!