This blog was supposed to be the story of how I was coping with my late father's neurological rehabilitation journey ... how he went from being in a state of good health & super fitness thru 3 surgeries to prolonged bed rest and unconsiousness today. I had hoped that my story would end with his full recovery however, sadly he did not make it 😢 During the mundaneness of caring for him, I did not have time to update this blog but I hope to carve out some time to import my journal entries to here ... who knows, my experience may help someone in need. 

On nights when Facebook and Journal reminders are NOT good ....

What a way to end last night or rather begin today ... 3 years ago today, I bade father a final goodbye.
(Don't know whether these journal entry reminders are a good idea)

I knew what I was getting into because I knew that I would be looking at funeral photos, but I just couldn't help it ... so I relived the memories (or should I call it my nightmares) and cried again. I miss you Father, I really do! Will I ever get over losing you?

Yesterday I thought that I handled your death anniversary pretty well ... Well sigh ... Regardless of whether or not I cry, I know I will never forget you or ever stop grieving. I feel that up until now, hardly anything (outside of our family) can hurt me any more because I have really really grieved so so deeply and sadly when I lost you forever. 😢😡

Ok I will try to recall what Sheryl Sandberg shared. And get some sleep.


Goodnight Father ... and I can almost hear you say Goodnight girl ... (Bawl)

Note:
Sheryl Sandberg Gives UC Berkeley Commencement Keynote Speech
https://youtu.be/iqm-XEqpayc

Transcript: Sheryl Sandberg at the University of California at Berkeley 2016 Commencement
http://fortune.com/2016/05/14/sandberg-uc-berkley-transcript/

Reflections

Wow, how time flies ... I have not updated this blog for 8 years! Now, let's see ... what has happened over the past almost-decade?

Busy in my last 3 years as an OM, became super busy as a DO since July 2011, got divorced, lost my beloved father in 2013 which was also the year where I was blessed with the opportunity to attend ALDP (APMEA Leadership Development Program), changed bosses a few times, really stepped up to the plate and learnt so much over the past one year and here I am, contemplating whether or not to start a blog again ... in between, both Ian and Mark have grown into fine , young men (well, still teenagers actually ...)

In 2013, I started a journal (using Day One app - it is awesome!) and have been diligently recording all mt reflections, attempts to install new habits, family activities, dad's journey and everything that I wanted to record!

Which is also partly why I have not been updating this blog ... cos all my memories are now in my DayOne journal!